See that black something around your eyes? Well, that is just one of the many things that will happen when you continue stalking that girl your lover is interested BEFORE. Okay, let me pinpoint the 'Before'. I know you have issues with him on this. You both know that you are not yet fully recovered from his lies and him being a cheater.

Anyway, it's already 2AM and you're still there, stalking, double checking everything, making sure he is not doing 'it' again, making small things big.. At the end of the day, you feel very exhausted and worried.. Very worried with these kind of questions: 

- What if he still chat her?

- What if he still likes this girl?

- What if nothing really happened to the things we talked about?

Not healthy, huh? Yes. Not healthy indeed!

But what if he still continues to contact her, message her privately, and of course, by this time, he will make sure that he will never get caught? What if?

But what if.. He really doesn't plan to do those things anymore? What if he is now ready to move forward with his life?

Yes, you may worry the same reason again and again.. But one thing is for sure. Even if you keep on stalking your guy and this girl, if he will do 'those things' again, he will and he can by any means! If he still wants that girl, send caring messages, I miss you's and I love you's, he is not worth your time, your effort, and your life. 

What's just bad here is the question.. 'How will I know?'

But you know what? You already forgave him you said. You prayed for this already and every time you both meet, he would pray about your damaged relationship to be healed by God.

The best thing to do right now is to pray for that person. Pray for that girl. That they may know what is the true intensions of their actions and everything.

I know it is one of those very painful days and nights. You are clouded by many questions, worries.. everything. Your damaged relationship can only be healed by Jesus Christ. Not by you, not by him. Only Jesus Christ. Lift everything to Him. 

One last thing, I am hoping that starting today, please, don't go back. Don't check the girl's facebook and everything. Learn to move on. Learn to move forward. 

Pray. Pray for your relationship. Pray for your damaged heart and soul.

Hurt,
XXX